Isaiah is now 11 months old, so I'm guessing that it's about time I share his birth story. :) I actually wrote this post just a couple weeks after he was born, saving it as a draft, and I'm so thankful I did that. I don't think I could've remembered half of the stuff in this post if I'd tried to write it all down now.
What I'll share below is the story of the night before and the night of Isaiah's birth. Though I spent a couple more days in the hospital, and Isaiah was transported to Children's before I could be discharged, this was the story of his birth. God's hand was so completely over, under and throughout this entire process, that there's just no way I can't share! Here it is...
On Wednesday, May 16th, I was scheduled to go into the hospital for a "soft" induction. To celebrate that Isaiah would be coming into the world shortly, Josh and I invited our family out to dinner with us at the Space Needle. We enjoyed gorgeous views, delicious food, and each other's company for a couple of hours before Josh and I finally headed off to the hospital to start the process of meeting our son.
Once we got to the hospital, which was at about 9pm, they immediately started my induction by placing a folley bulb into the cervix to help with dilation. My nurse that evening, Jacqui, was shocked to see how calm and comfortable I was after having the bulb inserted. She said normally women are in a lot of pain. I counted myself lucky... that was, for another 15 minutes until suddenly I was in so much pain I thought someone was slicing me from tail to navel. I screamed at Josh to push the call light and when Jacqui came in she both quickly assured me that I was not dying, and offered me some drugs. I obliged, though with some trepidation, since I've never been one to take drugs - I rarely ever take Tylenol for that matter! Jacqui assured me I'd be fine and even gave me half of the lowest dose they normally give, just to help me "ease into it." But within about 30 seconds of the fentanyl going into my line, the room started swirling and I did what I do best when on pain meds... I started talking. A lot. Non-stop. I was telling Jacqui and Josh about the air, and how it felt like velvet. Next thing I knew, my left hand was in the air and I was petting it, telling them that I felt like I should be laying in a green grassy field, in the sun, under a big leafy tree, with a warm breeze, and a soft gray kitten to pet with my left hand. Yeah.
Nurse Jacqui (pronounced like Jack-weeee as a joke) was a sweet lady. She had the softest, kindest voice, infused with a South African accent. She lives on a house boat during the week, as she works the overnight shift, and on her days off she actually lives right down the street from my dad on an island about an hour or so north of Seattle. Small world!
At about 7am on Thursday, May 17th, Jacqui came in to check my progress and introduce me to my day nurse, Suzanne. Suzanne and I got along famously - we talked all day about how similar our music tastes are, she showed me pictures of her dog, and we even chatted about where our families are from. She said she was from a small town in Canada that no one has ever heard of, mostly because it has a population well below 1000 people. I told her my grandfather was also from a small town in Canada. Guess what, folks? YEP! My grandfather was born in the same crazy-small town in Alberta, Canada that my wonderful L&D nurse was born and raised in! How cool is that? Like I said, God throughout.
I'd gone from 2cm to 4cm dilated overnight but wasn't experiencing any contractions. My doctor came by at 10am to see how I was doing and decided to start me on pitocin to help my contractions. The pain was tolerable at first, but quickly escalated. I finally asked for an epidural around 4pm, then sat there while the resident made 2 attempts without success at getting the epi in. Finally the attending got it on the third try, as I sat hugging a pillow. Suzanne held my left hand, Josh held my right, and my doctor sat next to me with her arm around my shoulder. Even if it took them three (very painful) tries to get the epidural in, I was so thankful in that moment to have three loving individuals surrounding me like that.
Once the epidural went in, things got a little sketchy. Isaiah's heart rate started to decelerate with each contraction. They kept turning me back and forth, side to side, all the while with an oxygen mask strapped to my face. Eventually, with enough movement and enough oxygen, Isaiah's heart rate would bounce back up and he'd be fine for a little while. This lasted for about 3 hours, until my doctor checked me again and noted that I hadn't dilated beyond 7cm for 4 hours. After consulting with a neonatologist, we were told that a c-section needed to be performed to prevent Isaiah's condition from worsening.
I won't lie. I was terrified. I bawled my eyes out and all I could think of, aside from being sliced open, was that I wasn't going to survive. This may sound extreme, but with being overweight and never having had any type of surgery whatsoever, I didn't think I was in a super great position. Luckily, my wonderful husband was there to pray with me. Suzanne stayed past her shift, too, to help calm my nerves and introduce me to my second night nurse, Susan.
Once in the operating room, everything got really fuzzy. I remember throwing up, like a geyser, all over myself and the floor next to me because the anesthesiologist took the little bucket away before I was done. And I remember my face suddenly feeling like it was on fire. I remember being scared because I couldn't feel my ribs, which made me think I couldn't breathe. I remember one of the nurses walking away from the side of the operating table (the surgery hadn't started yet) and my left leg rolled off. Then, the sheet went up and I couldn't see - or feel - anything below my sternum.
It seemed like forever, but finally someone must've said something about the baby almost being out because I told Josh to stand up and take pictures over the curtain. Bless his squeamish little heart... he did! Blood, incisions, naked baby and all! Josh later told me that he got a picture of one doctor pulling Isaiah out, while the other doctor held my intestines in her hand. Upon later review, what he thought were my intestines was actually Isaiah's umbilical cord. :)
It was 8:03pm on Thursday, May 17th. There was no cry. Just a lot of quiet movement with the neonatology staff tending to Isaiah and the surgeons putting my pieces back together. Then, finally, he let out a giant, incredible, heavenly, wonderful, angry wail and everyone laughed. He was 7 lbs. 13 oz., and 19" long.
I still hadn't seen my baby, as he was surrounded by so many specialists. I just stared at the ceiling, feeling the tugging and pressure in some unidentifiable area of my body, assuming I'd see him in a few hours in the NICU. Then a nurse, carrying this tiny bundle of blankets, walked up to me and introduced me to my son. She held his face next to mine, and immediately his crying hushed and his eyes opened, and I breathed him in, gave him a kiss, and told him I loved him. He cooed, I kissed. He blinked, I nuzzled.
They placed him in an isolette and, with Josh in tow, the team took him out of the room. I found out later that they wheeled him right past where my dad, Josh's mom and sister were all sitting, then stopped for a second so they could see him. When they stopped he let out a big squawk and off they went to the NICU.
Inside the O.R. seemed to take forever, laying there by myself and listening to the buzz around me. Trying to reconcile that new baby smell that still lingered near my face, despite there being no baby near. Finally, my amazing doctor leaned over the sheet to tell me everything went beautifully... though, unbeknownst to her, she looked like she'd just stepped out of a horror movie because she had sprays of my blood all over her gown and mask. I apologized to her for the mess, which I think she laughed at before looking at herself in the mirror, at which point she scolded the other surgeon for not telling her she looked so crazy before talking to me - haha!
Back in the hospital room, my nurse Susan started getting me prepared to go to post-partum once I'd met the two-hour recovery requirement. I kept apologizing to her, mostly for being loopy, but also because the adrenaline, medications, and raging hormones were making my entire body shake uncontrollably. We talked about her upcoming vacation to Kauai, which got my mind off of my body and into Aloha Land as I told her all of the great places she needed to go while she was there. Pretty soon, Josh came back from the NICU and told me Isaiah was doing beautifully! He had great oxygen levels, heart rate, etc. and they were performing the echocardiogram to confirm what the prenatal echos had shown. Once in post-partum, the attending cardiologist came by and told us that Dr. K's previous echo's were spot-on. Nothing new had crept up after birth, he was doing great in the NICU. With that, Josh and I tried to get some sleep.